eternity.

Too much challenge? No. Its weakness. Weakness in the many senses you can think of. I feel failure, in finding my inner strength. I've put up a strong front, for so long, but yesterday tore everything down. And they saw, how vulnerable and how weak I was, they saw. They saw me tearing, and the first thing i said when they said, " let it out, dont keep it in you, its not worth it. " and i answered, " I feel like giving up. " There, I laid down my weakness, right in front of them. So how strong am I now? I thought all these while, I was acceptably strong. Wait, there's another part. It's tiring putting up a front. Yes.

But I believe everything's gonna be okay. Focus.
The four of you, Janna, Sky, Aida and Nesh <3 Mwah, thank you so much for everything.
I'm gonna keep strong because you people have constantly been there to always try to lift my spirits up. And the fact that you stayed in school to made sure everything was okay before you all left, was really touching. You know you love me, I know you care ~ <3

If your intention's to break my already broken heart, well, love, your progress is going good. just so you know. you walk in and out of my life, and pretend that you've never left before. You're a real love bully. But thanks, Im learning. You'll learn to know that you can't break what's already broken, and when i fix this, you're never breaking it ever again. No doubt, I love you, but its gonna take more than all of what we've been through to get us back to where we once were.

two more days, hurry weekends.
The few reasons why I look forward to weekends :
I get a break from a hectic schedule
My body needs rest
I need my mum's cooking
The only time when i'll eat properly, I've always liked the idea of my parents taking care of my meals
I need to spend time with my family, 15 hours in school is getting ridiculous day by day
I get to see my Lala and E.

And the 24th is coming up, someone's brithday (: (:
Candaye and Ayu is a must meet up too.

Okay, I've to go showerrrr, I've a 2nd draft for PW to complete today, since I skipped school. Soccer + Fever + Heat = Migraine, fever, Body ache. That's a math equation everyone should take note of!

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