eternity.

I truly realised something. There's no point in closeness, because you'd be judged all the time. No point in being close to 10 different people to end up knowing you're judged differently by each and everyone of them. It's better to hold on to the ones you trust and learn to keep them, because friendships like that don't come by very often.

Personally, I'd like it that way. You may say I hold on too much to the past to learn to be close to others. But I don't believe in a large group of close friends/best friends. Whatever that may be. I'm thankful for the people coming in in my life, but there are just some you'd just want around all the time. You'd think about them , about how they're doing, even at the busiest moments. Yep, they are the ones I'm gonna keep close, because they're irreplaceable. So its not that I don't open up, its just that, its better keeping steady with everyone, then jumping into a friendship that won't last or end up pouring each others secrets only to part and spill all later.

And really, I just believe girlfriends stick around all the time, true girlfriends. <3