eternity.

Despite how angry and disappointed I am, I miss my bestf so so so much. I miss my bestf, terribly.
The one who'll entertain , comfort, have faith in me, thats my bestf. Even if it means no sleep. If I say, " Today I have insomnia howwwww. " , Bestf answers, " Then what you want me to do la! " I say, " stay up with me laaaaaaa! " Bestf , " Aiyahhhh you. ( whines for ten minutes, eventually . . . ) ok fine. I go drink water. Wake me up la k. " Thats my bestf. I have so much to tell him, so much to whine and complain, and go on and on, and not care about studying, and he's just not here. Maybe its my fault, I was being too harsh, ahhh, i dont care, bottom line, My Nana has to be here.

yes i know i sound very sad miserable, whatever you wanna call it, well.

anyway, i shall not keep this post dull and somber. today went by pretty fast, frankly speaking. biology was a to the w to the e to the someeeeee! I swear i could have falen asleep throughout the whole lesson, till my oh so caring partner woke me up and he said, "oi. new chapter. " then i remembered, i looked up, haha, i was right, " sexual reproduction" wide awake, and the men, they've got a hella of an interesting male anatomy.
School ended at 1.30 for us, we were supposed to leave at 1.50, but in the end, we stayed till 2.10 at the canteen with Khaliff. I walked alllllll the way to the Ntuc at Irra's house for nothing, the item I wanted wasn't there. & i got caught in the rain, sadly.

The phonecall at 2am with my favourite cow made me think.
" Why do people think the only way out is to die ? "
And while I was thinking, my cow fell asleep. So I went to ponder by myself. -.-

Still wondering . . .